Friday, October 21, 2011

I Don't Let Myself

I don't really let myself like many guys.  I don't know why, but most of the time when I meet a guy I get to the "you annoy me" stage faster than the "I like you" stage.  Which sometimes results in really bad timing when they get to the "I like you" stage and I've reached the "you annoy me" stage.

I hear all the time "why don't you have a boyfriend?"  Most of the time my answer is "I get tired of them" or "I get annoyed with them".  It sounds dumb, but it's true.  I'm very good at being friends with guys because I'm not trying to date and marry them, so whatever tendencies or traits they have that I might find annoying in a boyfriend, don't bug me as a friend.  I'm extremely picky and I'm even more guarded; it takes a lot for me to let you in.  Most people tell me that they don't know what I'm thinking.  Sometimes I wish they would because I think I get misunderstood in certain situations.  But sometimes I think that "not knowing what I'm thinking" is my defense mechanism.

Somewhat on the contrary I'm a very caring person.  I care deeply about a lot of people in my life.  Caring that much sometimes gets me into trouble.  I have a very Mom-like persona.  I like to help, I like to care for people and therefore I worry about people.  Disappointment is part of life.  You can't change people, something I know but am continuously reminded.  Sometimes the people you care most about in life, disappoint you, it's part of the ups and downs of every relationship no matter the nature of that relationship.

Life isn't perfect and neither are we.  We all have moments of pure joy and absolute heartbreak.  We all need to smile and laugh, fall down and cry.

I hope eventually we all let someone in who makes us wonder how we lived without them, even me.



  1. What it's like to date a Gemini Woman:

    The Gemini woman is truly enchanting. However, dating her might feel more like a friendship then a real relationship due to her casual nature. This is not necessarily a disadvantage, for the casual man who shy's away from overly romantic emotions, she is the perfect woman. Since she is the astrology sign of the duality, she offers quite the challenge. One one hand, she needs to be nurtured, loved and catered to and on the other hand, she needs stimulation and novelty. She is very demanding and if you do not provide what she wants, she will be off onto the next adventure pretty quickly. To keep her interested is a challenge, not completely impossible so she is the perfect woman for the man who likes stimulation and a challenge. She needs a partner with a quick mind, she tends to poke and prod at the emotions and the minds of those who are mentally slower then her, make sure you can keep up to her wit or you will briskly be left behind. She is prone to keeping men on a string, not completely heartlessly, she is evaluating if the man is worth her attention and her time she has no time to waste with a dull man. Once you have her approval, she can easily become jealous. The reason for her is jealousy is that if she is going to open up to a man, when she rarely completely opens up to anyone, she does not want to risk her being deceived or hurt. If you are with a Gemini woman and she becomes jealous, you are on the right track to true love! Gemini women are so exciting that they are worth the effort, you will remember her forever! how to Attract Gemini:
    Love to talk, that is the first rule about impressing a Gemini. Be knowledgeable about that you talk about too because Gemini are intelligent and have lots of knowledge about many things. If you are an expert on a certain topic, teach them about it, you will impress them because this know-it-all sign is does not usually know fine details about a lot of things, they are too busy to bother to learn. Speak your mind, engage them in a friendly debate but never be too conservative, they find this dull. Be honest and loyal to a Gemini, once they have had their trust broken they usually will never get it back again. Gemini are easy to date, they will do any activity anywhere. Just have fun, like you would with a friends because that's what Gemini are, a great friend.
    Gemini and Independence:

    Gemini are extremely independent. They will not be pinned down by anyone or any rules. They need to experience the world on their own. Change and freedom are extremely important to Gemini, they will never let anyone dictate them, they are extremely independent and freedom is essential to their mental well being.
    Gemini and Friendship:
    Gemini make very interesting and exciting friends. They like to leave their mark on everyone they meet. They are very flighty and will disappear for a long time as they meet new friends and explore new places. But when they come back, they will have new thoughts, opinions and interesting things to share and ideas to teach. Life is very interesting and fun with a Gemini friend. If you need any advice, Gemini is the one to ask. They are masters of communication and they can help you get what you need by helping you with persuasion and enthusiasm, and they give good advice too. Do not however, bog a Gemini down with all of your emotional problems, they are not want to deal with it because it depresses them and steps on their freedom if you need too much long term help, support and follow up. A Gemini friend can fill you in with the latest gossip and if you love conversation, the Gemini delivers! They are very generous with their friends, they will spend lots of time with you and share everything with you. Even though Gemini is a social butterfly, they always need time for themselves and that should be respected.

  2. Thank you who ever you are for posting this! It's mostly true and made me smile.