Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Almost a Year

As always I should be doing work right now, but it's been a rough day already so I needed some quick blog therapy.

As we near the one year anniversary of my car dying I continue to wonder how I have not gone clinically insane without a car for a year, especially on days like today.

I woke up late this morning, I don't remember my alarm going off, but oh well can't do much about that now.  I woke up to a message from my roommate telling me he needed his car today (he is nice enough to share his car with me), which meant he needed to take me to work.  He said he didn't remember if I worked so to knock on his door if I needed him to drive me.  I don't know how he didn't remember if I worked since we had talked about the fact that he might have to drive me at 11:30pm last night, but anyway.  So I send him a message when I wake up late saying yes I work this morning and I'd be ready in 10 minutes.  No response... So I get ready and knock on his door, get some food together for work, knock again....stand there and wait, walk in circles...knock again... At this point I should already be at work and I am still at my house a good 15-20 minutes away.  So I make the executive decision to just leave, he must've fallen back asleep, but I can't very well wait to find out and we'll just have to deal with the car thing later.

So...I get to work and apologize to my boss for being late, I don't explain it, because it's my issue not his and there is no excuse really.  I've probably been at work for 30 minutes and I get a message from my roommate...he just got my message and he needs his car.  His sister has a doctor appointment he has to take her to in 30 minutes and it took her 6 months to even get this appointment.  SH*T!  My boss was on the phone so I rather impatiently waited for him to be done and packed up all my stuff.  When he was done I hurriedly explained the situation and said I would work from home and come back later if I could.  I'm extremely flustered at this point and feel HORRIBLE about everything going on.

I get back home, my roommate leaves, and here I sit...suppose to be doing work from home.  Oye!  Now obviously this is not a daily or weekly occurance. But similar events happen about every month to month and a half.  I really do not know how I have not gone insane.  I can't remember exactly what date my car died on...I think it was a Tuesday or Thursday but it was at the end of April/very beginning of May so we are coming up on 1 year.

I would like to thank everyone who has let me borrow their car over the last year because you have helped me more than you will ever know.  Hopefully "non-car" state will not continue for me much longer because I can't handle too many more days like this.  But for now I need to get some work done.  I hope everyone has a wonderful day and a wonderful rest of the week!


Monday, April 4, 2011


I hate to be one of those girls that's "never over their ex" and this is not going to be one of those posts, but it does have some reference.  So...you have been warned :)

I have never been the boyfriend girl.  I have always had guys around, I'm kind of a guys girl and have always had more guy friends than girl friends.  And I've always had crushes, boys I've liked, 'dates', etc.  But I am also picky as hell when it comes to who I could actually "spend the rest of my life with" and I refuse to give you a chance and call you my boyfriend if I don't think it'll work in the future.  It's kind of a joke, but it has been said that if you last two weeks with me you must be special and if you make it two months you must really be special.  It's a joke, but it has some truth behind it.  It doesn't take me long to decide whether I'd like you to stick around in my life or not.

I've had a couple other relationships, but they were all very short.  The most recent one was the longest, best relationship I've had.  The whole experience changed me a lot, and I now have a better point of reference going forward for really what I am truly looking for out of a partner.  I am still trying to figure out what I really want to do with my life, I think I will forever be on that quest honestly.  But I am at the point in my life, that I am really ready for a relationship.  I don't have a lot of time these days, but I miss having that other person there when you've had a long day and you just want to curl up and be with the person that makes you happy.  I miss having someone to eat with and sleep next to, and just be there when you need them, and I never thought I would miss all of that the most.

Relationships take work and they're never easy, but at the same time there are relationships that really ARE easy, and they just work.  I never knew this to be true until my most recent relationshiop.  Until the end everything was just so effortless and natural.  Dating sucks, it is seriously not fun at all.

Most people tell you that you have to figure out who you are and what you want to do with your life before you can make someone else happy, and part of me believes that.  I believe you have to be happy with who you are, because you cannot expect to make someone else happy if you can't make yourself happy.  But in my personal life I feel like I could be happy doing anything career-wise as long as I have a happy relationship and a family.  I am not saying that I would give up who I am to have the relationship & family, but I also do not want a career that is going to get in the way of me having a relationship and family.  I was born to be a mom, and that ranks higher than career on my list.

I guess I'm not getting any younger at this point, and I'm tired of the same old thing.  I'm ready for the next step in my life.  I don't need to go out and meet boys...I need to just meet "the one" boy.  I'm not in a rush to make it happen...just ready for it.

Now...this old lady needs to get her beauty rest.  G'night all! <3