The last few days have been rough on my heart and my head. I have been thinking a lot about my life, my future, and where I want to end up. Life never seems to end up exactly how I thought it would. My life path is not a straight one...that's for sure.
I was watching Tori and Dean last night, the episode where Hattie was born, (don't judge me by my tv selection). And it made me sad. I love when other people get their fairy tales, but it always makes me sad that I haven't found mine. When I was little I always envisioned going off to college and meeting the love of my life there, finding a career and getting everything I ever wanted out of life. Never in any of those dreams did I think that I would be 26, without a car, living with a roommate I want to kill most days, working in a restaurant (which I honestly don't mind doing), still trying to find the love of my life. Now I realize I have made the choices I have in life, which is why I have ended up where I am. And I have learned along the way, which is all any one can ever hope for. But sometimes I wish the decisions I am forced to make would get easier.
I do my best to be grateful for everything I've been given in life, and I know what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Sometimes I just wish I wasn't constantly being put to the test.